standing on the steps with my heart in my hands

2 days more!

thank you junqi for going with me to pw! it really meant alot to me! :D

standing on the steps with my heart in my hands

2 days more!

thank you junqi for going with me to pw! it really meant alot to me! :D

yo exams are less than a week away! i've finally started to feel the pressure after realising that i haven't actualy completed reading brave new world, started on my lit analysis or done any revision for h1 chem. okay i din really intend to pass chem initially but if i fail it'll look so bad on my grades right? sighh loadsa catching up to do, which means i hafta stay up late late late again! :(

anyway school has been quite alright, think lessons are getting more productive, esp when teachers start hinting things! i was pretty annoyed by something that someone said to me that day which was really seriously damn insensitive. i was seriously taken aback when she said that and especially since we hang out together and friends just don't say curt things like that to each other. oh wells. i shall just be more wary i guess!

alrights, happy studying people!

ripped this off Junqi's xanga! im 41% bad!

put a cross on the side. when applicable
[ ] you have gotten F9 grades for math many times
[x] you always do last min hmks in class
[x] you use ur handphone to text ur friends inclass
[ ] your phone got confiscated before
[ ] you listen to ur mp3, cd player in class
[x] you sleep in class
[x] you curse teachers
[x] you are always late for extra classes
[x] you doodle on tables[ ]you make out in class
[ ] you are rebellious with some teachers
[x] you always hand up work late, sometimes, not always
[ ] you make fun of the nerds and geeks because i'm a nerd myself :(((
[x] you have broken school rules
[x] you always don't have the correct books
[ ] you don't take notes
[x] recess is your favourite part of school[x] you hang out after school
[ ] you lie to ur teachers about hmks .
[x]u tell ur parents that u dont have hmks, whenu actually do
[ ] u have made someone cry in school
[x] you copied hmks before
[ ] you threw away hmks before and lie that udidnt recieve it first of all
[x] you laugh at the way some teachers walk
[x] you have been late couple of times

> once done, count the crosses> and then multiply by 4. and post it as> I AM __% bad in school

hello today i was watching the ending of this hongkong show called love on a diet. fyi it stars sammicheng and andylau where they are 2 fat people who eventually lost a lot of weight and fell in love. and so i had a very irritating conversation which followed after that, which was sth like that,

my eldest sis (she's v critical abt people btw) : how hard can it be to make a show about people being fat
me: very!

(BOTH of my sisters burst out laughing like i said the most ridiculous thing on earth)

me: it's true what, it isn't that easy to like make skinny people look fat. the fat suits must be convincing also wad.
sis: but it's harder to make fat people go on a diet to look skinny in a show.
me: in that case why don't you say that it's like people shaving bald to star in a show?
sis: but shave bald already the hair will still grow back wad.

and then i was really lost for words, din know how to argue back. im usually not very vocal cuz my family members are far more critical than me and i normally won't see the point objecting to their views and that was my first in being vocal at home but got completely jacked! :/

anyway i won't be seeing tommy for a really long while, like 3 weeks cuz of exams. which really sucks. ahhhh! good luck to everyone, especially cheryl, whose exam starts tomorrow! you can do it cheryl! good luckkk!

hello my life into exile has started. no more going out, no more tv, no more use of computer, no more coming home late from school, using the comp and doing nothing cuz promos are soo soo near! i don't wish to start a countdown, it's just too scary! anyway i bought a mag today so that i won't feel so upset that i have to study all day long and feel terrible especially when cheryl and tommy end exams earlier and get to play! :/

those words wrongfully said. feelings and outburst that should have been held back. i wish i could say hello and not feel the impending silence. i wish i just din hafta say everything. how did everything that seemed so small evolve into something so serious.

just had econs tuition with cheryl today. and i heard some stuff. i guess some people are just too free to go around spreading rumours, and living in a deluded state. but you do have to know that even the wildest rumours will have no impact on the present, neither will it have an impact on the future. so my dear supposed friend, i do hope that you get this straight and clear, and wake up from your dream!

it's frightening how one small slip may actually cause things to go downhill so fast. and that's exactly what really scares me. the unpredictability of everything else. anyway im so sick and tired of putting the tortoise thing in front for steve irvin. not that i don't respect him or admire him, but it's like, one minute people are saying put a tortoise to respect him, then the next thing they say is put a rose. like wth, so troublesome. and coming to think of it, why did i even follow the crowd and put that tortoise thing?? it doesn't even symbolise him la!

yesterday was a pretty interesting day. had a little advenutre running away from my mum at city hall. well that aside, we went to carl's junior! mmhmm! sourdoughbacon, superstar with cheese and chillicheese fries were yummy! oh and i saw this little boy who was about 4 or 5 years old and he was eating like this styrofoam packet of fried noodles and egg while his brother, prob a few years older was eating a carl's junior burger and omg i felt so sad for the younger boy. he looked like he was going to burst out crying eating that fried noodle thingy.

anyway today's a busy day. council at 12, prob gonna meet tommy for a while, den off to tuition at 730. hope last till at night! :/

yesterday was really disappointing. wanted to back to sc to see teachers and collect cert but i ended up finishing council at like 230. was kinda irritated at first cuz everyone else got to leave sch at 10 plus but i had to stay until so long. but the company was good so it was quite alright in the end. and yesterday was a gloomy dayyy! rained the entire time! went off to meet tommy after everything cuz he was nearby at acsi. went off to collect cert at like 4 plus. haha brought him into sc to explore and it was kinda weird though, don't think i was supposed to do tt. ooh showed him the ecopond which had mini frogs jumping up and down! they were black! :/ i was so grossed up but tommy found it very interesting! yucksss! oh and im sorry my dear minxin i couldn't go back with youu! we'll catch up during the hols for study session okay!

some friends are really not worth having btw. they only come to you when they are in need. how disgusting.

so that was ytd. today i stayed home the whole day intending to do math! but i fell asleep aft several qns and went off to sleep till 430, woke up and realised i had to go to cheryl's house to study w her. left for her place, chatted for a while then went off for dinner near her house. went to buy coffeee after that and then rushed down for tuition at an unearthly hour of 8pm. so late laa! okay and then now i here. okay shall go shower.

oh and tag replies! hello josh michael buble is quite nice to listen to, especially home! and hello looloo and g! heard cheryl saying that she met you all ytd at far east! hope you all had fun! :D