sometimes you fight so damn hard for something you want, something that you think will make you feel better. but then you realise that in the process you compromise on other people's happiness. that's when you take a step back, and realise that maybe you just can't have things your own way all the time. there are times when you would rather see other people be happy, even if that means that you have to suffer as well. i've been trying to search for that exact solution for a long time. then i realise that maybe there just isn't a perfect solution, one that fits all. it's just a matter of how you perceive things, which perspective you decide to take and how deep you're willing to let yourself immerse in this. and strangely, sometimes between the harder and easier way, we choose the harder route, even if it means that eventually, you might just be at the losing end. because sometimes your own happiness doesn't take the centre anymore.