okay so maybe there were alot that went through my mind today. rides on the way to school has gotten me to think alot more. i still wonder what lies beneath what i saw. and yet i cannot decipher and the best i can do is sit back and guess all the time what you're thinking. and it never works cuz i never know if my guesses are eventually right.

remember cny last year? i got pissed and you tried to pacify things? well this year will be different. it'll be so different now that you're gone..