i just realised that we have so many similar viewpoints. you're almost like this exact replica of me.

did i just say this week has been challenging? well next week's gonna be ten/hundred times worse! i have a feeling campaigning's gonna drain out most of my energy, but i hope it'll all be good and worth it! sighh.

im gonna miss you alot you know. i sound like im going on a very far away journey, but yeah i really wish i just had a whole day to spend with you with no interruptions. just one day.

ahhh okay i think i'm gonna need all the strength i can get to last through next week. THANK GOD it's only 4 days, one more extra day and i think i'll just collapse of exhaustion. im tired. like really tired of everything.

school wasn't too bad today. rugby match, ac vs cj. ac won by quite a huge margin. hmm i think it's the first time the school bleachers were coloured with light blue uniform people and white shirt uniform people. but it was good all. catching up with the rest at nydc holland v. mushroom madness pizza and water. and the countless times we walked up and down that stretch wondering which place to eat at. and then it was talking about old times and den getting home. this week's been really challenging!

i think im gonna declare tuesdays a go home early day! haha and maybe thursdays too since im getting home alter and later nowadays! it's quite odd how your stamina for the day increases now that it's jc. like in secondary school, i always thought ending at 4pm and getting home by 5pm was gonna be the most tiring day ever, and now we're ending school at that time and getting used to it.

anyhoo, school wasn't too bad today. just a few worrying things here and there but it was all good. pe was quite fun with floorball and then we celebrated marilyn's birthday! happy sweet seventeen girl! ((: and the rest got her an ultra huge princess balloon and a very yummy chocolate cake! haha!

haha well yeah ytd was fun and interesting i must say! haha!

okays im off to uh complete that task that i still haven't done up yet!~ :/

i dunno what to get! arghhhh!

i finally got a haircut! it's not very visible but at least my hair's thinner now! ((: well can you see im updating? there isn't much to update about though. school's been the usual. boring and tiring. i think we all need something new to perk up our school lives! hmm im really tired though. haha i shall just look forward to labour day holiday! one more full week to go which means 5 days of school and then it's a long weekend! ((: for now we shall just hafta endure the week and no matter how torturous it's gonna be!

ooh okay and uh i guess that's about it. im still on my mission to complete a very important task! okay see youuu.

"when life's atrocities forbids you to exclaim your heart's greatest dismays, the unorthodox seems to be the only way out. "

but it's too hard to say
i wish it were simple

things that may be better left unsaid.

so i am really bored at home. and for once i wish i had gone to school to take the gp test! and now im just gonna spend the rest of the day wondering about the house, entertaining myself with the tv and the internet. and no one is online! being sick is sure definitely not fun! hmm okay now i can't decide if i shld take the cough mixture and go to sleep and den wake up to study for math and chi, or study for math and chi and den take the medicine and sleep. i think im gonna watch full house first!

one of these days im gonna break so badly.

you know what? time flies by very fast. council interview results are gonna be out like next week i think. i remember how it felt like just a few weeks ago when i finished my interview and they said the results would be out after the interviewing of second intake, and i thought to myself, that's gonna be a long time till it's out. and now it's just next week and i think i am getting the jitters. thinking back i cannot remember how i did and that scares me cuz im somehow inclined to think i did badly then.

i don't really like staying at home nowadays though. i feel the need to get out the house to go walk somewhere or something, especially when there's no homework to be done, no nice tv programmes. and some people really have to pick on the smallest thing to find fault. but thankfully, i've learnt that silence is the best counter reply. it can either mean that what she's said to me has no effect, or that i didn't catch what she said.

good friday!
-shopping with cheryl
-catching up on things
-long talks on jc life, the things that people just don't get.
-nine dollar tops from f21!
-double movie
-and many other fun things!
-oh and meeting many people!

econs tuition today was no doubt funn! the things that the tutor says, the lamest things about handphone models and the natas fair! okay and now i hafta do like 2 essays by this weekend, and a whole lot of tests to study for! :S

breakdown.

im really seriously thankful that the week is finally over! it's only been four schooling days but it seems like eternity! it has been another mad rollercoaster ride of emotions again! i have no idea why but almost everything seemed annoying to me that i actually feel bad for being so angsty! well and yeah classes are really speeding up, more assignments, more tests, things are kinda settling down into place, which feels really weird after slacking for 3-4 months after the o's. i need to get going on alot of things!

on a lighter note, good friday's finally hereee! i think i can finalyl sleep late without worrying what time i have to get up, and sleep until as late as i want! oh and i had an awful nightmare last night. but the weird thing is, it just faded out and i started to dream about something else. like i din wake up with a start because of it. too much anxiety i think.

and dear char is coming back soonnnn! can hardly wait to meet up with her and then we can go out w yak and laugh alot, like the time when we went to yak's house and hung around the kitchen eating everything we could find and talking and laughing about alot of random things! i dunno how to say this, but it was honestly unrestricted and genuine!

please don't lie.

anyways don't you realise that our favourite songs are always songs that we relate most to? songs that bring out the hidden emotions in us that we've always felt but never told anyone before? and songs that link to the saddest/happiest moments of our life that makes the deepest impression on us. well yeah i dunno i just thought of that somehow today.

im jollyy happy cuz friday's good friday! that means one day less in school, and one more day of waking up late!

after school outings are good! ytd was to petshop and town for window shopping! wasn't too bad, topshop shopping has got to be the more hilarious thing though! and today to ikea today! it wasn't too bad, and we coincidentally met hannah and debo again! they were shopping for a gift for a friend and in the end they bought her a portable stool so that she can bring it everywhere she goes! hannah took quite long to choose the right stool by the way, she couldnt' decide between the brown ones or the yellow browinish ones which din really make a difference actually! and then the rest of the class bought gummies and snacks! i dunno why but going to ikea gives you the feeling that you're overseas. it's like the cafeteria there makes you feel like you're in the states where the stopover cafeterias have the system of queuing up to get your food first before paying. and the sweets and snacks downstairs that always have german/french words on the back of the packaging. it's like stepping into a mini excerpt of foreign land or something!

i wish we had more public holidays. somehow i dunno where all the hols have gone to! last year seemed to have more holidays in the week! :S

things will get better. oh yes it will, i hope.

ahh well i shld get to shower.

i need a getaway.

im gonna need a whole lot more courage that i expected, to overcom alot of things. i guess i never expected things to turn out that complex, but i guess i have to keep thinking positively now.

well on a lighter note, met up with cheryl today and we kinda skipped an hour of econs tuition to go to macs and talked talked talked. quite relieved to get stuff that's been inside me all week off, i guess i really miss sc days where things were much simpler, people were nicer in so many ways, less conniving, and situations were not so complicated. oh and i saw my dearest yaoqi today! she was with anabelle and uh, they were looking for carrie chong at heeren to get hollaback crew tickets? hahaha so odd! but really din expect to see her! the last time i met up with her was like cny, when i popped by when i was around the vicinity to check out her house! i miss her so much!! i should go back one day!

school's been quite a bore lately. tests are coming up. i need to mug alot moreee. i guess i am finding out alot more about other people too! and seeing moments of truths here and there! at least i know now. hahhaa!

aaand i desperately need to meet up with yak for dinner/lunch/whatever! i need to rant and know what's been going on in her life, and talk about everything and anything cuz i haven't seen her in ages!

i missed talking to hannah this whole week though! thank God tempest is over! (:

hmm so these few days in a nutshell. thursday! it rained really heavily so we had to cab down to town! then it was brunch at bk, followed by bag searching at far east. one thing about shopping at far east is that you hafta differentiate between the ahlian and non ahlian fashion! or else you'll just end up looking really weird if you buy ahlian things.

pw was such a waste of time today though. spent like 20mins in class before realising no teacher was coming and we all just left. and den on the way out, i was seriously highly annoyed by a certain someone who said really insensitive things! like although i think you probably have like much more major flaws than me, but i've never said anythings that would have been so direct and untactful! i think you should seriously do a self evaluation before commenting. because of one these days, you're gonna talk non stop while the audience place thieir votes.

okay damn tired
im out.

somehow when im with you, time passes by really quickly. even if we aren't exactly doing anything except sitting around and talking or just staring into space. i can never get enough of you and saying good bye after each meeting is so hard, cuz i know i am gonna miss you for the next few days till i meet you again. :(

i realised i haven't been online these few days. i don't know why but i have this weird feeling if i go home before six, like something's missing? so i end up finding people to go out with till after 6 so i wouldn't feel so weird. well it isn't good, i should get home early on like maybe wed and mug or something. im so far behind in everything! esp lit! i need to get myself started on reading the whole text at one shot!

oh yeah the class wanted to go to the meiji factory ytd! can't remember who said there was a discount on all products on fridays so we wanted to get down and check it out but alot of people couldn't make it so we just headed down to town and then i met him after that for dinner! ((: im quite happy that he actually took the initiative to clear things up! ahhh but i know im gonna miss him alot! even though it's only gonna be a few days of not seeing him! :(

and then i actually went for the mg expresso thing today. uhhh, i guess it was pretty okay. the whole highlight was probably the band performance, it kinda turned into a mini concert where everyone started to jump to the songs! saw alot of people too actually! even though i didn't think that i would!

hmm im waiting for you to call! ((: