hellooo! im happier these days because i bought 2 new tops, a belt and a clutch! :D:D and im craving to go to some flea market and buy things! anyone who knows of any please tell meee! :D

today was such a bad day. politics politics politics. i din know you could offend people that easily. it's really a complicated world out there. trust me, nothing is as rosy and perfect as it seems to you people. they just have a way of making things seem good to the rest. behind it all, everyone just can't wait to kill each other. and i had to attend a senseless family function which i sat through not saying a word and acting friendly. i don't care i'm going to skip the next family gathering which will be uhh christmas eve! someone please date me for christmas eve and save me from horrendous gross aunties and gross cousins!! :/ and i wish you din have to go out, i really wish you din have to. but its really quite selfish to think this way.

but well yesterday was great fun! (: din get to meet my classmates but..


















had fun with cheryl at vivo!




































and then met tommy for a while!

hello term results are back but im pretty borderline for alot of things so guess that's just means more catching up to do during the hols! :/ it's really fast how year1 of jc just passes by so fast. i guess alot to be thankful for in jc, yet choices that i made that i still regret. i don't know. i'll get by i suppose.

i think it's amazing what impact people have on you. the sacrifaces you make. this really sounds weird but i think i am going to eat lesser and be that size!!

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet

paranoia really kills. i tell you one day i'll just lose it and go mad!!

i can't believe i ended school at 2pm, there wasn't anyone to go out with, so i came home and had piano! and the day after that passed soooo slowly! took a seemingly long nap and here i am, online, and really, there is no one to talk to online! where has the world goneee toooo! sighhh!

(oh the stuff below doesn't concern my classmates! just in case cuz u guys always complain about my entries!)

anyway lately alot of things have been happening. things that i don't say out loud. i don't know. all these insecurities, even if it is over the slightest things. but then again, i think sometimes it's not about how small matters seem, it still bears that kind of weight on you. you see, all these minor people you say that they don't matter. but they do, because each of them could mean a repeat history of whatever happened earlier.

i don't know. im like seeing through things that i find very odd, but yet i can't seem to find someone who looks at things the same way as me. well i find that it's very cruel to only care and bother about someone if he's of a certain status. just one slip and everything is lost. everything. it is that harsh, ironically, we practise what we said we would abstain from. and funny how no one brings up anything about the whole matter. just heartless and cold.

oh wells. there's only so much i can do in everything.

i screwed up last night's "panic" quite badly. really sorry cheryl! i promise i'll make it up to you k?

today i hope you had fun going out!

i guess it's really quite ironic, the things they say they'll do for you. but in then end, you really have to rely on yourself.

today i learnt that independence is really important, reliance will only bring you disappointment.

how long am i going to keep this image up? it's really doing me some good to be more discipline and stay away from doing temptations, but im really not used to living up to expectations. how how how. i knew i should have quit back then! i always knew there was this weird something that was nudging me to just quit! i should haf just followed my gut feeling and do what makes me happy! now im really doing things for the sake of it! :/

this is my bestie cheryl ang yu xia,
who never fails to make me laugh
she always chiongs for sales
and tells me all her school tales
she's the only one i'll ever relate to
because she's simply just too cool.
cheryl cheryl cheryl
you know nothing can break whatever we have
here's to more tuition for math (i wanted to say econs too but it doesn't rhyme!) :D :D

hello! today is such a wasted day! i stayed home thinking that my family wanted to go somewhere together but it turns out that my sis has a million and one scripts to mark so we all gotta stay at home! sighh this sucks. everytime i stay at home no one in my family wants to go anyway and when i go out, everyone else wants to go out for dinner as well. see how irritating the situation is? then i get accused for not spending time with family! arghhh!

anyway ytd was quite a fun day. except at night, cuz of some undesirable people that i had to meet. anyway it was fun! caught rob-b-hood with tommy at marina and it was surprisingly not too bad! i think tommy din really like it cuz he din understand the show! anyways! we walked around alot, and i saw a nice pair of earrings from miss selfridge! it was so blingg! i dunno whether it was the lighting at the shop that made it look bling or was it really bling! haha anyway i think it was pretty but i dunno if i should get it! it was like 19 bucks?

anyway i hate it how im already starting to be so busy! arghhh! i hope next week will be much much better!

okay im gonna see what's nice on tv!

so restricted sometimes. i dunno what to do. how to handle. and what exactly should be my priorities.

hello sorry to have to thank people again but ness junqi felly mari liteng becky amirah really deserve a bigger thank you for the cake and party hats and the surprise at fish and co! thank youuuu so muchhh! :D:D:D

thank you to everyone who made my birthday so memorable! especially since i din expect much when it's in the midst of exams. thanks so much! :D:D