bad night

i realised crying helps to release a lot of the pent up things in you. so i guess this has been going on for quite a fair bit in me, i've never said what i really thought, cuz what if what i really thought was just the opposite of your thinking? wouldn't that make things worse? i always say that i'll do this and that if i see them talking. but somehow i can never bring myself to say those things for some reason. well how do you know what you're feeling is right or wrong? how do you know when you are feeling and thinking too much? how and when do you know that it's the right time to place restrictions? what if the restrictions are just too suffocating? i don't know. i really don't know. and worse of all, i don't know how to say everything.