i guess i've had enough of this whole i-wanna-have-full-control of whatever that takes place in your life. i guess it's time that people wake up their ideas and realise that the world isn't just made of one single sex, it consists of both female and male. i think you should be open minded, and susceptible to accepting changes. it's not right to compare and judge whatever i do and what my sister did in her time spent in jc, because for one, we're totally different people with different characters, ideas and mindsets. and two, times have changed, especially when my sister and i are nine years apart, close to a decade. the trend then and the trend now are 2 totally different things and i have tried to explain things to you but somehow you don't seem to be able to see the bigger picture. so i guess there isn't much i can do. sometimes it's not that i want to lie, but it's cuz you're always placing restrictions about doing this and that, so i hafta say i went shopping instead of what i actually went to do cuz i know if i said the truth, you would haf said no. and with all your uncalled for suspicions, it makes me want to have to lie more cuz im afraid i'll step out of line. i guess alot is about changing your perspective. it's no use saying that i have changed, when in the first place you never did take the effort to understand me, so what right do you have to judge me and say that i have changed? i guess it takes both sides to work together to make things alright, but with you and your conservative ideas, its never gonna work out. i don't understand why can't you be supportive of me when it comes to certain things? why can't i talk to you just like how the rest do with their mothers about problems that every other teenager faces. its no use trying to get to know me better simply by going out more often with me. the crux of the problem is still the fact that you are unable to accept things, to truly take time to sit down adn listen with an open mind and from there, understand things better. i guess you just make this hols very much hated, esp since i haf to stay at home and face this whole i am suspicious of your every move attitude. you're only pushing me to spend more time in sch or outside when the hols end. and this is exactly what i had planned a long time ago.