i feel like school's been weighing me down alot. like this uneasy unnatural feeling of always worrying about something, even if it is the easiest and simplest thing. sometimes i think about it, and i realise that 80percent of my time is spent in school? it never really used to be like that, at least not for long periods like these. well i don't know but i am not really looking forward to the holidays cuz it's gonna be the most taxing june hols i've ever had. it's like one month away from terms, and it worries me alot cuz i know things aren't exactly on track and i have to find a way to remedy everything, and with only one month, i don't think it'll be that sufficient..well yeah okay i just think school's been really hectic. was just watching discovery travel and living during dinner, and they were showing globe trekker. and then i just wished at that moment that i was the host of the show, so that i can go around the world seeing new places, especially places that are like english countryside with the grey skies, little houses, quiet roads, little churches here and there and mostly green fields that covers the entire area with the occasional sight of lambs and mountains in the background view. wouldn't that be a great getaway? you don't have to deal with school, homework and all the other seemingly pressing issues in life.

so he's got an exam tmr, i hope he does well! somehow i also worry, even though it's absolutely nothing that's got to do with me! i wish i had a little more time to spend with him today though. i just wasn't in the mood for a lot of things.

maybe i shld get to sleep soon. i realise sleeping is a hideaway too, unless you dream about schooll also. okay im off.