i realised the hols are ending and i haven't actually done much work! im not even done with the 3 texts that i was supp to read! :/ haha anyway i guess the big party is tonight. hope i won't think so much, and be happy! haha i guess i've thought about several things and i figured i really have the option of either believing and trusting, or to be paranoid and be very unhappy. but i guess this whole thing is really about believing and trusting, even if you know that there is a small percentage that your trust may actually be betrayed in the end. but i've decided to just have faith, even if i don't really have any concrete reason to have complete faith. i guess if the person really betrays what i've given, then the person wouldn't be worth the time and effort, i'll just move on even if i know it'll be very difficult!