school was such a bore today. we actually had more talks than ever. feels like a new school year somehow, with new classmates and mixing around and getting to know people all over again. i wanna drop chinese but i dun feel like anymore because my chinese class is so fun! my laoshi's damn funny, she tells like stupid lame jokes and lets us guess other dumb pictures that have hidden chengyu words here and there! but what if i really start to get busy with everything else later on? den wouldn't it be better to drop chinese! ahh i dunno!

okay i know im like damn uptight about certain things, but you have to understand that it's a matter of having dignity! it's quite annoying if people who know the truth go around distorting facts! i don't see the point in that!

and i realised that the fact that im so angry over what happened also means that im really starting to care more and more! omg im so right! and that's a good thing right? someone please tell me it's right!

ahh and i felt damn emo on my way back from holland v today! even though i had gelare w hannah shiyan debo xiang and his fren..i still felt very emo about alot of things. i think im still afraid that i might fall harder.

okaaay so let's hope certain things are kept in place, and wish for a better day tomorrow!!